SO BUSY

Yesterday I asked Hing Lun to fetch me to office... so I reached office at 7:30 AM!!! Had so much work to do, that I only left office at 11 PM! Hing Lun had to bring food for me so that I do not get my gastric again... Haiz. I worked a total of 15 and a half hours. I think I'm going crazy soon.

Saw my chinese doc 2 days ago. She took a look at my tongue, said it looks fine... then she took my pulse and suddenly looked at me with a shocked face... She said this is what they call overworked. Haiz... I need a lot of prayers.

God help me... this is taking a toll on my health again. Sob.

My legs... arghhhhh

Oh gosh!!! I woke up to a super aching body!!! Wanted to go back to office today to clear my emails so that I do not get overwhelmed on Monday... but it seems that I can't. Too painful... :( I'll go to office on Sunday then... sobs.

So since I'm home today... let me share some more things I learnt over the 2 day seminar.

I learnt not to complain, whatever situation I'm in, not to complain. Just to do the best that I can do. Even if I still do not know what I want to do in future (as in career), the goal in the near future, should be to do the best I can in my current job. Like what T. Harv Eker said, I will try to not complain/whine about anything for the next 7 days!!! Ok fine, I'll TRY. Ok FINE, I WILL STOP COMPLAINING!!! :)

Will update more again when I remember what I have learnt. Hehe.

Paralysed

I feel paralysed from neck down. Haha.

Yesterday went for a company sports day. Played captains ball. What is captains ball lor!!! Played so much of it in church YEARS ago and in school. I thought I could handle it with no sweat. Ok fine, I have not been exercising for a long long time. So... my WHOLE body is aching like crazy!!!

Oh man... I need more exercise... haiz.

Was on leave for the past 2 days. Attended the National Achievers' Congress and learnt a lot. The most impactful topic to me, was the one on Happiness. Happiness is not something that you wait for others to give you. Happiness is a choice, it is a decision you make. Do not think negatively, always think positively. For example, say " I play to win", instead of "I play not to lose". Do you see the difference? Here's a very useful exercise for all who are reading this blog right now. Close your eyes, put a BIG smile on your face. Then think of something sad or angry while keeping the BIG SMILE on your face. DO THIS BEFORE YOU READ ON!!!














You will realize..... that you can't think of angry or sad thoughts if you have a BIG SILLY SMILE on your face! Haha... isn't it wonderful? Great huh?

Thank God for the things I've learnt in the 2 day seminar.

Scary Monday tomorrow

Tomorrow is the 1st day i assume my new role at work... Worried. Worried that I don't perform up to expectations. Worried that I do not get accepted by my new team. Worried about everything. God help me.

Trying to distract myself by playing maple... got distracted for a while, but now as u can see, I am blogging, so I am worried again.

Everytime I think of it I get butterflies in my stomach. Haiz.

I need to take a nap, headache.

I miss my old workstation already... will take one last look at it tomorrow morning before moving the rest of the stray stuff left to my new workstation. Haiz.

Thankful but fearful

It's confirmed... I'm moving on in my present company :) Given a new role now, kind of like a step up. I thankful that God had brought me through all the anxiety. My heart had been beating so fast these few days. Now that I've got it... I start to worry...

I'm fearful, and I feel like I'm treading in murky waters. I feel inadequate, although many had reminded me that I'm capable enough to take up this new challenge. I have never felt this way before in school, when I was committee member for all my 3 ECAs. I think this is what you call the unscrupulous working world.

SK told me that it is time to grow up, to let the maturity in me show. Yeah... but I still wanna be a kid!!!!!!!!! Mature kid. Lol Lol!!!

God closed one door to me (at least He showed me that it is not time yet to open that door), but He opened another door, a door that leads into another corridor, with many other doors. The corridor is filled with thorns, every step I take may hurt me, but I see that there is a tiny pathway at the side of the corridor, just enough for me to tiptoe through :) I believe that God will lead me through the trials and tribulations that I am about to face and experience. I understand that sometimes I might lose my balance as I tiptoe on the pathway, and I might just step on some thorns, but I believe that the vines on the ceiling will pull me right up again.

I'm tired and wounded after the battle... but yet excited! Need to spruce myself up for the new battles coming my way. And I believe that I'm not alone in this... Thank God.

I already gave my best

Had another chance to further my career today. Prayed for open doors, and also for a heart that is willing to surrender. To surrender my career. Felt at peace today...
Really must try to leave everything to God, and not to think whether I will get the position or not. Just do my best in whatever position I am in. I am already in His Plan, so no rush or hurry for anything. :)

Peace out.

Full Surrender

SK had always been enforcing this principle... Surrender my career to God. Just surrender and do your best. Well, I've been trying my best... but seems that I'm just too weak.
Thank God for Sat's cell. Dear Janeee shared her QT material... FULL SURRENDER. Really woke me up. Coz SK had already been telling me this for the past 2 weeks.
I need to learn to surrender my life to His Will. Can't hold on to anything too tightly, except for His Kingdom. :)
Yes God, I will surrender.

Really sad le

Haiz... my career remains stagnant for a while more. No change for me... but there's still a small chance to be picked to do something else... see how everything goes. Where God wants me to be. Everything is in His plan. I shall surrender and pray for a heart to accept whatever outcome it might be...

Haiz, sobz.

Anyway, played Maple from 12 am til 4:30am last nite! Woots!!! So fun... Don't think I can do this today though, tomorrow have to wake by 7:30 for church. Haha. It's ok... I can't be playing games my whole life right.

Spoke to my aunt last night too... she kept on asking me when I am going to quit my present job. Well... I told her I might still stay on for a while. Seems like she wants me to do insurance with her... Well, I have to give her a negative answer now. Don't wanna do insurance yet, and not interested. Now I just wanna see how far I can climb in my present company. Hehe... And not act like a sore loser and just quit. Haha.

Okie... going out for lunch with Mum and Grandma soon. Mother's day lunch!!! Woots!!!

Sad but thankful

I'm so so sad... cried a bit yesterday... can't describe it here... but it's related to work. Did not manage to move forward, but remained in the same place. However, it seems that things like still looking up for me. I guess my efforts are still recognized in my workplace. I hope... if not, I might have to move on to another place... somewhere which will appreciate my efforts and my strengths.

Maple time:) Coz I am not working tomorrow!!! Yippee!!!

Smooth Day

Thank God for a smooth day today. But still having some butterflies in my stomach because of some things happening at work. Sorry friends, can't describe much here due to confidentiality issues, but all I can say is... this concerns my future in my company... Well... I can talk more if we go out for dinner one day. Hahaha...

This reminds me... need to arrange some dinner meetings with some ppl. Haha. Wanted to arrange for so long... but have not come to it yet. Lol.

Anyway, thank God for the colleagues at work who made it more tolerable. :) Thanks SK, Cindy, Sharon, Emm and Christine. Life is more tolerable at work because you are there. :)

It's time for me to get my beauty sleep... my old frens... you all know what time I have to sleep... hehe...

Luv ya all!!!

I'm on mc today

After sending ym off last night at 11:30 pm, went to see doc... My head was throbbing and my eyes sore with pain. Doc gave me an mc for today so my afternoon was spent sleeping... Tension headache... Giving myself too much stress at work I guess... I need to learn to relax. Kind of dreading work tomorrow, coz when you don't go to work for one day... the emails pile up, and you can get nasty surprises from emails. For example, PLEASE CALL THIS CUSTOMER BACK, SHE WAS LOOKING FOR YOU. Fear this type of emails :( Well... but kind of got used to it already. Thank God. :)
As I type this posting... the headache seems like it is creeping back to my head. Think I'll take another dose of painkillers before I sleep tonight, hopefully it goes away tomorrow morning... Sobs, need to wake at 6 am tomorrow, coz I start work at 8 am.

YM going to Japan for 1 mth

Haiz... my friend of over 10 years is going to a faraway place for one whole month. Will not see her in church for the next 4 weeks... weird feelings... somehow seems like I am losing a friend for one whole month even though we seldom call each other or seldom meet up. Somehow, this lump is forming in my throat... I'll be going to send her off later... hope my tears remain in my eyes, and not overflow onto my face...

Yimin, if you are reading this , here's wishing you a safe and enjoyable trip overseas. Take care and God bless...

For all who don't know why she is going overseas to Japan for a whole month... well... she is in a RICH Japanese company , and it is sending her and her team to Japan to learn to operate some machinery, coz they are going to upgrade the machines in Singapore. I think I got it rite.. hor yimin?

Ok... this officially ends my blogging time today. Buai!

Fish and Co

Was at Fish and Co with Hing Lun last Fri... There's this new dish called New York fish and chips which I absolutely recommend!!! Love it. Oh... but I must definitely comment about their way of celebrating birthdays. Too noisy and irritating. First they will force the birthday ppl to stand on the table/chair with a lighted 'sparkle' (hope you know what I'm saying here) in their hand. Then they will shout (very loudly) to the whole restaurant about the birthday person's name (actually I can't even make out what they are saying, coz they obviously cannot pronounce their words properly). Then the crew sing their own Fish and Co birthday rap. I also can't make out what they are rapping about. After they finish their rap, they will lead everybody in singing a birthday song, and here is how it goes: (normal birthday song tune) Happy Birthday to you (hoo ha!), happy birthday to you (hoo ha!).... This silly part on the Hoo Ha is added by the crew after the end of every phrase. *diaoz* Furthermore, it seems like there were more than 3 tables celebrating birthdays. So the crew HAPPILY did their rap and Hoo Ha birthday song CONSECUTIVELY 3 times!!! Thank goodness we were waiting for the food to arrive... if not my New York Fish and Chips might just decide to swim away from the commotion. Fine I'll forgive them this time... since their New York Fish and Chips taste so nice :) Let me count how many times i mentioned New York Fish and Chips in this posting...1,2,3,4,4,4... haha... yeah I love New York Fish and Chips... 5!!!!!
Ok... the lesson learnt is not to hold your birthday celebration in Fish and Co. It's super PAISEH and disturbs the diners.