27th November 2007

My brother went for his friend's wake this evening and returned late...

He has been so quiet ever since the Dragonboat incident in Cambodia happened. Everytime I returned home for the past few days, he'd be staring blankly at the computer screen, looking at a photo of his lost friend in friendster, or writing in the blog set up for his friend Jeremy Goh. And the song Angel (by Sarah Mclachlan) will be playing softly in the background of the blog. It's sad, and tears will well up in my eyes as I hear the song. The song is beautiful, but coupled with the incident, the word will be heart-wrenching. Sad is not good enough to describe how I feel.

I cannot relate to him in this incident, and I am trying to understand his feelings by simply watching and listening at a distance. I simply imagine my despair and devastation if a good friend of mine should pass away suddenly. It's scary, but it can happen. I will treasure friendship dearly.

On another note... I'm getting confused. Confused by what God has prepared for me. Confused by what my career is going to be. I am still waiting for MOE to tell me what will I be doing in January. And they have not... I AM AN IMPATIENT PERSON. Please... I loathe waiting or anticipating. ARGH.

All the bodies of the missing have been found...

Please pray for their families.

This just shows how fragile life is.

I will treasure the people around me.

Please pray for my brother's friends who are still missing in Cambodia

Thank God that my brother was not in Cambodia. A boat containing Singaporeans capsized due to strong currents. Right now, 5 still remain missing. See link here. My brother is very worried and called the Singapore Embassy several times to check the status of the search. Please pray for their families and the search.

Had a very bad headache after dinner. Think it's due to the bad weather these few days. Cold, then hot then cold then hot. Usually I do not take any medication to ease the pain, but the headaches have been on for the past few days already. While I was watching a Taiwanese variety show, the headache got so bad, so Dearie went back to Grandma's house the get some Panadol for me. Yes, my home does not have Panadol. I had to endure the pain to sleep last night. Took me a long time to sleep, think I fell asleep only after 1am. That's why I gave up and took Panadol. Now my temples feel numb. Well, at least it's not pain for now...

Just came back home from

an interview at a foreign bank. In Jobstreet, they stated the position as Credit Planning. When I went for the interview, they told me the job scope was simply to fill in forms. Why do they need 2 years experience for filling in forms????????? I simply told the interviewer that I was not interested. HA.

Lalalalalala

I am still craving for

steamboat!!! YO!!! The tom yum steamboat was so nice la!!! I still wanna eat eat eat!!!

Haha... but I can feel myself getting a sore throat... the current batch of trainees is so huge, that I can't talk normally, have to shout, or rather, project my voice more. Haiz.

The training has come to an end. I wonder... what's happening next. Saw a friend while waiting for Emmeline for lunch today. He reminded me of some things which I have been avoiding. Nope, have not been offered. Just scared that I cannot resist if offered. But I still dunno what I should do.

Help.

Took a personality test on Facebook... So true

Temperament:
Flexible
Nothing seems to bother you - you sail through life crisis free. It's not that your life doesn't have its ups and downs, it's just that you handle everything without unnecessary drama and antics. You approach each day fresh, not worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. You are confident that you can handle anything that comes your way and experience has shown that you are absolutely right about this.

Interests:
Simple
You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.

Amusement:
Adventurous
It's a good thing that you are filled with energy and ambitions (that others sometimes find exhausting) because you're continually looking for a new adventure and exciting experience. You struggle with a continual feeling of restlessness which constantly pushes you to the next level of excitement. Once you have accomplished one thing, you are eager to accomplish something more exciting, riskier and distinguishable.

Passion:
Emotional
For you passion is less about romance and sex - it's more about friendship and family. Strong emotional bonds and connections are your passion and your pleasure. You always let your loved ones know how much you love, respect and admire them. You do this through kind words, loving actions and simple gestures. You count your blessings each day and express your love openly. You expect the same from others.

Mum's birthday today

Went to Tao's (at Paradiz Centre) with mum and HL for dinner today. Bro was supposed to bring Wendy along, but both of them did not turn up, coz bro fell very sick this morning. So I told him to get a cake for mum instead and wait for us to return from dinner. Glad that he did, and mum was plesantly surprised.

Tao's is a fusion restaurant and it was an interesting experience. The food was good and the service was good too. Although HL did complain that he did not really had enough and the waiters seem like they were rushing us through the courses. It was a 7 course meal at $28+++ per pax. There was no ala carte in this restaurant. Visit their website for a look: http://www.taos-restaurant.com/

Yup... so there's a hole in my pocket now coz the meal cost a little over $100. But it's alright, coz it's Mum's birthday. She's 51 now, but I'm happy to say, that she still does not look her age.

Okay, it's time to catch up on some sleep. Yay, no work tomorrow!

Just came home from steamboat

at Roxy Square with Yo. So full and satisfied! Haha. We ate a lot of beef, and had golden mushrooms and abalone mushrooms. Also had a lot of other stuff like mixed balls and fish glue. The fish glue is interesting, coz it's fun trying to get the glue off the ladle.

Her dad got transferred to High Dependency Ward again... please pray for him.

Tomorrow gotta wake at 6:30am... morning training... Gotta sleep soon lo!

BYE BYE.

Grandma's in hospital

coz water went into her lungs and she also suffered a fit. She was already sick yet she continued to go out from 7 am to 6pm for 3 consecutive days. That's why it get worse, and landed her in hospital. Just visited her in TTSH, she looks fine, but has to remain there for a few more days, coz she's on antibiotics. Haiz. She a naughty and defiant grandma, sort of like a 老 顽童. Coz of her brain tumour, she had undergone numerous operations over the years. The tumour is very small now, but I believe it is causing her to become a bit senile. She didn't use to scold or quarrel with others, but nowasdays, she can actually talk back and quarrel with grandpa. WOW. Coz she had always been the meek wife. And my grandpa, the big bully. Yup, will pray that she recovers well.

We had so much fun yesterday

playing games like Phase 10 and Swap at my place.

Invited the steamboat gang over to my place for a gathering. We played, laughed, and ate like 16 year olds. Haha, yes we were all either 23 or 24 years of age, yet we still try to live in the past. Lol. It was really fun!

Actually the main reason that everybody came, was simply just to accompany Yo, and hope that our friendship can calm her worried heart. We were simply at a loss for words, and we just hope that the company will suffice. Sometimes the best conversation is in silence. But we did not give Yo a lot of silence though. Haha. It was filled with laments on why we cannot complete the Phase (in the card game called Phase 10), reluctance on Swapping hands with another (in the card game called Swap), and noisy chomping while we munched on pizza (we ordered over the phone, not Pizza Hut, not Canadian Pizza, but from an unknown pizza store that has an outlet just 2 blocks away from my place). I guess, we had enjoyed, and also hope that Yo is comforted by our friendship amidst all the distractions. Yo, we will continue to pray for your dad and you and your family.

I am feeling nostalgia

about the things in office. Good and bad.

Makes me think twice whether I really want to go back there if offered.

Sian, dunno what to blog about. SIAN. TIRED. OUT.