Disgusted...

by some things happening in my ex company.

Haiz... Oh well... Guess I'll just have to accept that things are such there.

I shall not brood over the unhappy things... and shall concentrate on things above. And my loved ones. And my friends. And we shall discuss on things above, and happy moments, and interesting moments to come. :)

Lalalalalalalalalalalala.

This sentence is mentioned by my fren's fren last nite:" Ratatouille is classic humour"... and how true! Why did I decide to mention this here? Well... Coz Ratatouille is so nice! Lol. Actually coz they wanted to watch Balls of Fury last nite, and one of my frens was like... eeew... no crude humour for her. LOL. The I was like mentioning Ratatouille, and said something like:" How about Ratatouille?" And the both of them replied (almost in unision):" Ratatouille is classic humour" and the other said:" Ratatouille is different"... Ha.

Facebook

Hooked. On Facebook. It's so funny and cute. It's definitely more interactive and entertaining than the over rated Friendster.

Signing off to bum around in Facebook.

Clumsy clumsy

Haiz... I fell down in a carpark yesterday!!!!!!!!! Haiz. Now I got a very very ugly bruise on my left knee. Haiz. Wear long pants also very pain, coz the pants will rub against the wound. Haiz.

I think I'm a bit PMS already... the time of the month is coming... hahaha... So I dun feel like blogging.

BYE.

Sickening

Just got notice that one of the trainees pulled out at the last minute. So I do not have to train them tonight. SIAN. But still gotta go to office from 2 onwards until 6:30pm.

Just had breakfast with bro, feeling full.

I'm feeling irritated, that my ex company is not taking me seriously. But maybe it's just me thinking too much. They might not have meant it that way. But I'm feeling quite down now though. I think I have given up on them, as they might have given up on me as well. I'll concentrate on MOE for now... but still have to face my inner demons when I go back to train in my ex company.

God, please guide me...

I'm disappointed with what is happening to my career at this moment. I'm kinda losing hope, like water through a paper sieve.

But I know that God is there for me. He knows what is best for me in my life, career etc.

I need to surrender everyday to His plan for me. Which of course, I still don't know what exactly is the plan. Zzz.

Addition to Sept 17, 2007

Forgot something.

Dear Jane... All the best for your interview at IMH tomorrow. Just stay cool and calm okay? As long as they know that you are the interviewee, and not the patient, then you'll be fine. LOL :) Jiayou jiayou.

On a more serious note... there might be some cats lurking around in the interview room... just to test you on your greatest fear on earth... JOKING LA!!!

On the serious-est note, God bless you for the interview tomorrow. May He give you wisdom and peace. Cheers gal.

Sept 17, 2007

I guess I have no more ideas for the title for my posts, so I just put the date such that my post is not title-less for today. Duh.

Yay, I had a very fruitful day today, although the day has not officially ended. Haha...

Had a sister and brother talk with my bro this morning over breakfast at the kopitiam. It's great that he was able to share more with me this time round, such that I was able to understand him better, and he, understand me more too. I'll continue to pray for him and his gf, Wendy.

After that, I went cycling with Jane at East Coast Park. We cycled for 2 hours!!! In the hot sun!!! Haha. So now, I have a sunburn on my arms and thighs... sob. But it was fun! We saw Shuqi and Shihui cycling there with their friends too! They were my ex students while I was doing relief teaching in AHS for one semester in 2002. Wow, they are in polytechnic now studying Occupational Therapy after they graduated from Junior College. Jane and I were like... wow... you3 qian2 tu2 (bright future)... Haha... And Shuqi is actually Jane's BSF classmate. Haha, the world is very small. Okie... so besides getting sunburned and meeting my ex students, our butts hurt too... the bicycle seats were quite hard. Sianzz...

Well, besides chatting with Shuqi on the bus ride home (yes we even met them on the bus! Ha), we talked about CSI. Jane was saying that she has been watching CSI Miami on AXN. Then I was like telling her that I have a CSI game which was absolutely fun fun fun. So I think I'm going to install the game in the PC again and play it. Muahahaha. I completed the game years ago... but of course... with cheats!!! MUAHAHAHA! Well, it's fun, so I'll play without cheats this time. Heeeee.

YAY! Off to install and play CSI!

Oh wait! I promised myself to finish reading Esther today. Okie... I shall read Esther, then play CSI... good ger.

Boredom is good

Hahahaha... I feel bored. But I prefer boredom to stress. Lol.

Maybe I should ask some of my unemployed friends out to exercise in the coming week, since I have no work yet. From 24 Sep onwards, I have a part time job until end of the year. Muahaha.

You must be wondering why I do not want to go relief teaching. Laziness I guess... or maybe I'm just irritated by those noisy adolescents. Zzz.

Yimin had diarrhea today, and didn't go church. Poor thing, hope that you are better.

I always like the sermons given by Pastor Jia Mi. Somehow they make me more fervent for God's Word. I think I wanna finish reading/studying Esther tomorrow. Yeah, that's my resolution for tomorrow.

Byez for now.

I think I will not put any title for this post. All my titles are irrelevant to my posts anyway. Muahaha.

I miss my old workplace. Haiz. I miss my ex colleagues, although some of them are leaving too. Haiz. I want to return so badly, but I'm afraid that I will get disappointed, so I'm trying to remove this fervent hope in me. Haiz. I will go into MOE, for now. For NOW. I'm lost, bothered, and bewildered. Haiz.

I want to go out with friends. I want to play badminton. I want to play my guitar and excel in it. I want to know God's Plan for me. AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't want so much. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

A friend's friend (sorry, dun wanna reveal who it is here) has a blog. And has this very nice sentence in one of the posts:"silence is simply another channel for us to connect". It just shows how much the other party means to this party (I'm sorry if you don't understand, but the 2 people involved will understand. Haha.). I'm touched by this sentence, and this sentence also reminds me of my parting note to one of my ex team members in my ex company. She was touched that I wrote that although she was mostly a silent worker, I wrote that we had formed a good friendship in this silence, and that I will miss her companionship, even though it was silence most of the time. It's just so beautiful, I like silence, coz I like 'stoning'. Haha.

Still zonked

Haiz... I'm still zombie-fied... I'm living in a slower paced world.

Just had lunch at Cartel with Nancy today. It was a great time catching up about stuff. Lol.

Tml gotta wake up super early to prepare to go relief teaching if any. Sian sian sian. Dun wanna scream and shout.

Hooked on a weird game

Hey all... I was playing this weird game but I found it so fun. Haha.

Snowman Stacker Toss and stack snowballs to make the tallest snowman.

Play this free game now!!

Confused

I dunno what is happening. I guess I'll just take the contract position offered by my ex company first until end of this year, then I'll decide. If God throws me sickness during these few months again, then I'll know that I will have to go into MOE.

After what happened in UOB yesterday, I'm really bewildered at what God has planned for me. I'm lost, confused. I need to pray more.

I feel like I'm moving in slow motion since yesterday. I am sluggish and zombified. Zonked, zinked, zucked. All that's in my mind is what choice I should make such that I do not go against what God has planned for me. HDSJFHUD HELP. I don't even know what to think about anymore.

I used to love playing computer games when I have nothing to do, but it seems that I have lost that fetish. I prefer reading now. Whenever I feel bored, I'll just pick up a book to read. So much so that I have completed 4 books since last week. Yes yes, I have been patronising the Tampines Regional Library. Haiz. It's weird.

Ok, I'm off to play miniclip. LOL.

What if...

What if I'm offered a perm position by my ex company. Should I take it... Not that I'm offered or wat, but... wat if???

I do not want to rebel against God's plan for me to teach. I do not.

But I will be tempted. But hasn't the years of sickness when I was in my old company clearly showed me that I must leave??? I'm tempted.

God please save me from temptation if any is to come.

Amen.